If you're listening to this in real time, it's the end of November 2023 and it's that time of year when it just feels like everybody around us is getting stressed. It's the run up to Christmas, we're finishing things off for the end of term, we're trying to achieve our final goals, we're trying to get ready for the holidays, we're thinking about what we want to achieve next year and everyone's kind of run out of energy. And to be honest, if you're listening to this at a different time, you may well be feeling like that anyway, because more and more the academic year feels like that all year round.
If you're trying really hard to kind of look after yourself and stay on top of your own stress levels, but you're finding yourself surrounded by other people who are stressed, other people who are complaining, then this is the perfect episode for you. We are going to be thinking about how can you manage your mind when those around you are losing theirs without needing to push them out of your lives, without needing to solve their problems, how can we study our own emotions and look after ourselves, no matter what is happening around us?
Hello and welcome to episode 11 of the PhD Life Coach and we're going to be thinking about how to manage your mind when everybody around you seems to be feeling stressed, too. Now this has come up partly because of some supervisor training that I've been doing. So, as you know, I run workshops for PhD students, but I have now also developed training for supervisors, which really thinks about us as humans in this supervisory relationship. I know from coaching PhD students that your supervisors have an enormous impact on your experience as PhD students, and I know from my coaching of academics that the quality of your relationships you have and your experience of supervision affects your experience of academia too.
It's a two sided thing. And so my supervisor training is really designed to help supervisors figure out what relationship they want with their PhD students and how to be more intentional about how they create that within the context that we're not superhuman supervisory machines and that we're all too busy, overworked, and feeling under pressure.
So it's a really cool course. Hit me up if you wanna know more about it. But the reason why I wanted to talk more about it today was because some of the tools that I introduced in that I think are really useful for lots of people, because what I see when I talk to students and when I talk to members of staff is that the people around us can have a really profound effect on our stress. I want you to imagine you go into the department, you bump into a colleague, whether it's a fellow PhD student, fellow academic, whatever stage you're at, you bump into them in the corridor, they tell you all about how they've got too much to do and they don't know how they're going to do it, and so you sort of listen to that and empathize and feel, yeah, it is like that, isn't it?
You get settled in your office or at your desk and somebody else comes over to moan about their supervisor. Or to complain about university administration not being effective or to complain that things should be doing differently and then you're just about to try and get going on what you intended to do and somebody else needs your help because no one else will help them and they've been abandoned and all of these things.
And suddenly we're in this position where we are surrounded by people that are having their own struggles and who sometimes remind us of our struggles. I certainly experienced those days where you go in and feel like, Okay, actually I'm going to get on it today. There's stuff I want to do, I'm feeling okay. And by the time you've talked to a few people in the corridor, You've lost the whole will to get on with anything because we allow their emotions to sort of infiltrate our emotions. When they're feeling like that, we change the way we think and the way we feel, and it can have really profound effects on our actions.
Now, you might have seen things on Instagram and other bits of the internet where they talk about you know, mood suckers and eliminate them from your life because you need to surround yourself with positive people. No. No, no, no, no. A. Not realistic. B. Not desirable. C. What about people who have mood disorders, mental health problems, etc, etc? Not useful! We're not shutting anybody out here. We don't need to shut anybody out here. Because shutting them out implies that we have no other way of coping or managing this. We can still have people around us who have whatever perspectives they have, and we can, with some skills, with some practice, with some support, be still responsible for our own emotions and behavior.
Now, if you find yourself thinking well, no, but people do upset me, people do frustrate me, they do affect my mood, then, that's okay, it's understandable, we're taught this stuff growing up. You know, how many times have you either said to a child or had said to you, oh don't say that, you'll hurt mummy's feelings? Okay, we get taught that we're responsible for other people's feelings and that they are responsible for our feelings.
Today, what I want to introduce you to is a notion called emotional adulthood, and how this can enable us to take control over some of these things. So this is something that I was taught as part of my training through the Life Coach School with Brooke Castillo. And she talks about this notion of emotional adulthood, which is taking responsibility for our own thoughts and feelings.
It's saying that whatever circumstance I'm in, so whatever the factual situation is, whatever people's behavior is, I am responsible for the thoughts that I choose to focus on and the feelings that I therefore experience. Okay, this is not saying... I always have to put a bunch of caveats up because people always have perspectives on this I can probably hear you say, yeah, but does that excuse bullying? What if people are behaving unacceptably? And of course, if somebody is bullying you, I wouldn't want the thoughts that you choose to be. That's okay, I can put up with it. You might prefer to choose thoughts like, This is unacceptable, and I'm going to do something about it, for example.
So, being responsible for your thoughts and feelings doesn't mean always thinking positive thoughts, and it doesn't mean only experiencing positive emotions. It means accepting that if you are feeling frustrated in the moment, it is because you are thinking, they shouldn't speak to me like that. Now, if you stand by that, you think they shouldn't speak to you like that, happy days, we get to be frustrated and we get to decide what we want to do from a place of frustration.
That's fine. But we also can recognize that there are a bunch of other thoughts we can choose to have about that situation. And the joy with emotional adulthood, if we can take responsibility for our own thoughts and feelings, is it means we don't have that situation where people can drag us down, people can ruin our moods, where people can upset our intentions. It also means we're not dependent on other people to make us feel happy. Or to make us feel secure, or make us feel confident. Because that's the flip side of this. If we are on one hand at the sort of whim of the people around us to determine our mood, because they affect our mood, we believe directly, then the opposite is also true, that we rely on those around us to make us feel better.
It's something I see in the supervisor student relationship a lot, that students want their supervisor to make them feel secure. They want them to make them feel confident. And one of the exercises we often do in coaching is to identify what you want to hear from your supervisor and figure out how you can tell that to yourself.
So often I'll have a client and they'll say, I just want my supervisor to tell me I'm doing a good job. And what we do instead, because we don't have control over the supervisor, we, you know, we can request more positive feedback, but we don't know what we're going to get. What we do instead is figure out how can I make sure I'm telling myself I'm doing a good job?
Cause usually when we need to hear it from somebody else is exactly when we're not saying it to ourselves. So emotional adulthood is taking responsibility for your own thoughts and feelings.
So, what does this have to do with being in an environment where everybody's feeling really stressed? It means that when somebody is telling you all about their stresses, you don't have to have the thought, yeah, they're right, things are rubbish, and get down about it. You don't have to have the thought, Oh, I need to help them. I need to make them feel better. You don't have to have the thought, Yeah, they're right. Everybody's completely out of order. This is terrible. ? You don't have to have any of those thoughts. You can think, Oh, they're having a really tough time right now, aren't they? That's a shame. Yeah, I feel bad for them. You can have a thought, That's a really interesting perspective. You can have a thought, yeah, those things are true, but I can still be okay.
There's a whole bunch of thoughts that you can have that don't translate to you immediately just sucking up the emotions of those around you. And it's not easy, okay? I'm not gonna lie, you're not gonna listen to this podcast and then just go away and it'll all be water off a duck's back, it doesn't bother you, yeah?
It's not that we don't empathize with the people around us. But there's a big difference between jumping in and joining in in their negative mood and empathizing and staying with them. So as coaches, we get taught how to hold space and how to, we call it, not get in the pool. So I will never jump in and be like, Oh my gosh, yes, it sounds like your supervisor's horrible. Oh, you definitely have too much to do. That's terrible. We'll never do that in a coaching session. That doesn't mean I don't empathize with you. That doesn't mean I don't say, Wow, okay, that sounds like a lot. Yeah, I can, I can see why you're feeling like this, if those are your thoughts. I can see that this supervisor's not behaving the way you wanted them to. That must be really hard for you to accept.
Okay, I can empathize. I can understand your emotions. I can understand your thoughts without jumping in and telling you that you're right. And sometimes we can channel that a little bit more in our... personal interactions at work.
I don't mean start coaching people. Never start coaching people without their consent. Don't just jump in but you can choose not to get in the pool with them. You can watch the thoughts they're having and think how interesting it is and to decide how you want to respond to those thoughts.
The other thing that people always say when we talk about emotional adulthood is that some elements of our emotional reaction to things are not within our control. And I agree, especially if we have mental health problems, there can be biological causes for the things that we're experiencing. Anybody who has menstrual cycles will have experienced the impact that hormonal changes can have on how we perceive things and people that have experienced trauma in their lives may also find themselves reacting in a more heightened way or in an inappropriate way because of those past experiences.
All of that is absolutely real, is absolutely true, but it doesn't negate the fact that we still get to choose what we think about that. So one of the things that I've noticed is when I'm being a bit hormonally irrational, what really helps in my thought processes is just acknowledging that that's the case. And not in a blaming myself way, but in a, yeah, things always feel a bit worse at this time of the month. That's okay. We don't have to turn this into, and I need to change my life and I need a new job and I need to change everything. We don't need to, because we know that at this time, everything feels like a really big deal. And that's okay. Because I can look after myself in that.
So I don't try and tell myself it's not a big deal, because, you know, arguing with a hormonal person, we've probably all tried it, not ideal. And especially when it's ourselves. Well, yeah, I don't have to convince myself it's not a big deal. I just have to remind myself that, yeah, it feels like a massive deal at the moment, and that's okay.
So by taking responsibility for our own thoughts and feelings, it slightly buffers us from all the people around us. And that might sound a little bit heartless, you might be thinking, but I don't want to be separate from these people, I want to help them, I want to improve that.
But I would argue that jumping in the pool with them and getting down too, getting stressed and overwhelmed too, doesn't help anyone. It doesn't make you feel better, it doesn't help them, and it creates an environment that becomes self fulfilling. Because if we all are just at the whim of each other, then I listen to you being overwhelmed and stressed and anxious, and then I talk to somebody else about how overwhelmed and stressed and anxious I am, and they talk to somebody else, and then it just spreads like wildfire through departments and we've all seen it happen.
So being responsible for your own emotions doesn't make you heartless and it doesn't make you unempathetic. In fact, it enables you not only to look after yourself, but also to make positive change in the environment you're in.
One of the other models that I talked about in my supervisor training actually comes from psychotherapy, but I'm not using it in a psychotherapy sense. And that is the Karpman Triangle. It's called the Drama Triangle. It was developed by somebody called Karpman. And it's a really useful model to help you understand human behavior.
So imagine a triangle, and in one corner it says victim, one corner it Karpman rescuer, and one corner it says persecutor. Victim, rescuer, persecutor. And what Karpman proposed is that when people are under pressure, when they're in difficult situations, they position themselves and other people in one of these places on the triangle. So maybe when we're feeling overwhelmed, we've got too much to do, we put ourselves in the position of victim. We say, this isn't fair, the sector's broken, everything's terrible, there's nothing I can do, I can't change anything, I can't improve anything, we're very much in this victim mode.
And, importantly, that's not saying that we're not affected by structural things. I very much believe that there are structural issues in academia at the moment. But when we take on the victim role, we abdicate all responsibility for any element of self regulation and just say it's entirely their fault. I can't do anything about it.
Okay, and we then position others as either the baddies, the persecutors, the ones that are causing this, university management, who are ruining everything, as often we talk about, or we position other people as the potential rescuer. They should help me. My supervisor should be making me feel better about this. My head of school should be fixing this for me. And the problem here is we're always looking outside of ourselves for solutions. So instead of the victim taking responsibility for their own emotions and their own thoughts, and how they therefore behave, they look for others to either save them, or others to blame so they can pass on responsibility for why they're in this situation and what they're going to do about it. That's because it's easier. It's much easier to blame somebody else and it's much easier to expect others to swoop in and rescue you.
The other real key feature of this triangle is its volatility. How quickly you can flip from one to the other. So I want you to imagine a situation between a supervisor and a student here. And the student has positioned themselves in victim. They think they're not getting enough supervision. And they're going into a meeting where they are hoping that their supervisor will help them with this. So they've positioned their supervisor in potential rescuer mode here. And they have the conversation, and the supervisor says words to the effect of, really, you should be able to manage this for yourself. It's not something that I have time to give you more support with, so you need to go back and try again.
What's going to happen if they stay in this drama triangle is that the student will likely quickly flip, so that the supervisor is now in villain. They're now in persecutor. Okay, they've gone from being a potential source of support to, to blame for my feelings. If you're not going to help me, then you're a baddie.
Okay, that flicks. And so then the student might be like, well, that's not good enough. You should be, you know, you're not doing your job properly. That's not fair. So they're then starting to blame the supervisor. Now put yourself in the position of the supervisor, who a second ago was a potential rescuer in the eyes of the student, now is a potential persecutor, in the eyes of the student, and that doesn't feel nice. None of us want to be a villain. None of us want to be the persecutor. So we now flick with, well, you never try hard enough. You haven't done enough work. The only reason I haven't done your comments is because you were late giving them to me in the first place. You need to show more independence. And now the supervisor has swung themselves round into being victim and is putting the student in persecutor mode.
Okay, we flick between them and those of you who are out there going, Oh, no, I'm nice. I'm nice to my students. I'm lovely. We don't have these problems. I want to ask, do you position yourself into the position of helper, position of rescuer? Because the other thing that happens is a student comes in saying, oh, I'm really struggling with this. I'm finding it difficult and the supervisor sweeps in. I can help with that. Let me do that bit for you. Let me make a plan for you. I'll give you the papers you need to read. I'll structure this out for you. I can monitor you more carefully.
And you put yourself in this rescuer mode. And what happens, it sounds really nice. It sounds like you're helping. You want to do what's best for them. But what it does is it reinforces to the victim that they can't sort these things for themselves. It reinforces to the student that they need the supervisor to rescue them. It reinforces to the supervisor that the student isn't capable, And maybe it stays like that for a while, while the supervisor is able to help. But then maybe the supervisor starts to resent it a bit. They start to think, oh, I've helped this person so much, and they're not grateful, and they're not making any progress, and then the supervisor flicks themselves into victim and positions the student as the persecutor. I've given you all this help and you're still not pulling your weight. I've done so much for you and you don't seem to care.
So when we position ourselves as rescuer, and we do that in a kind of contingent way, we expect a level of gratitude, we expect a level of personal change and development because we've helped them so much. When that doesn't happen, plot twist. It's probably not going to happen. Then suddenly we start feeling like the victim here, that the student's taking advantage of us, that we're doing too much for them. And the student is now in persecutor.
I would be amazed if any of you listening to this today, haven't found yourself in this triangle. It might not be with your students and supervisors. It might be with managers. It might be with your family. It might be in relationships. Okay. We see the same dynamics. People who've done this in more of a psychotherapy context, see this with our families of origin. See this in the families that we live in now, I'd be amazed. So don't worry if you found yourself in one of these positions, it just makes you a human being.
But when we start to notice it, we start to see the negative consequences of it, even the negative consequences of being the helper, being the rescuer. And by understanding it, we get to choose something different.
In the years following Karpman's description of this triangle, Choy described a triangle called the winner's triangle. I don't like that phrase, I'm just going to say. I don't think winners is a particularly helpful psychological construct, but I really like the triangle.
And what Choi proposed is that instead of taking on the role of victim, we want to take on a role of creator. And this is where we take responsibility for our own thoughts and feelings. So that idea of emotional adulthood. And where we are willing to be vulnerable because we are taking responsibility without blame. We're able to share the things that we're finding difficult because we're not beating ourselves up for them. And we're not expecting others to beat us up for them. We're not having to protect ourselves. We're taking responsibility while admitting that we're finding things hard. That's the kind of creator role so that's the alternative to victim.
They then proposed coach instead of rescuer. So here, whereas the rescuer swoops in to try and fix it for them, the coach helps the creator to be self empowered, helps them to come up with their own solutions, provides some structure and support and prompts and challenges to think how can they help themselves.
And then the final one is Challenger instead of Persecutor. Because sometimes things need to change. So none of this is about accepting whatever environment we're in. Maybe you're experiencing some bullying. Maybe your department is doing something inappropriately. Maybe there are things that you think should be done differently.
When we're in persecutor mode, we just moan about the baddies. We moan about university management not doing what they should be doing. We sort of fall victim to, it's unacceptable, it's not fair, all of those sorts of thoughts. In Challenger, we challenge constructively. We say, you're not responsible for my thoughts and feelings, but I am saying this is unacceptable. I am saying we should be doing this differently, and here's an option. Here's a way we could do it.
And similarly, it's not swooping in and fixing it, because sometimes that kind of challenger role, if we allow it to go to its extremes, it can put us in rescue mode. So one thing I see a lot is people who have very strong feelings about equality, diversity and inclusion, very important and very worthy feelings about those things, and they want to make things better in their environment. And they start out challenging and calling for it. And then when other people don't step up, they step into, I'm going to have to do it all, aren't I? I'm going to have to be the one that creates socials for all the different diverse groups. I'm going to be the one that has to set up new systems for these things.
And therefore they're putting themselves back into that original triangle. They're putting themselves back into rescuer mode because people didn't step up when they were in challenger mode. So we can flick between these two triangles. That's human. We're not going to beat ourselves up for that. But, trying to think intentionally about staying within the winner's triangle, the constructive triangle, whatever we want to call it.
Staying within creator, where we take responsibility for ourselves. We're vulnerable and open because we can be kind to ourselves. Coach, where we seek to self empower others and ourselves. And challenger, where we seek to give constructive feedback to make a difference in things that are important without just fixing it all ourselves and without just blaming other people.
So I want you to think, where have you got difficult conversations coming up? Do you need to talk to your supervisor about some work that you haven't finished yet? Are you a supervisor who needs to talk to a student about deadlines that are being missed? How can you think through those interactions in advance? And think, how can I not go in there as victim? How can I not go in there seeking rescuing? How can I not go in there treating them as the persecutor here? How can I put myself in a position where I'm moving between being a creator responsible for my own thoughts, a coach, and a challenger?
I would love to hear how you get on with trying that. I think it can really fundamentally change the way our relationships work.
One thing that came up when I was doing the supervisor training this week with it, we talked about these triangles in that. And a question that I got a few times was, what do you do if the other person stays in the original triangle?
So let's imagine you take on a more coaching role. Whichever way around. It doesn't have to be, you know, the student can coach the supervisor too. It doesn't have to be a hierarchical thing. You put yourself in the coaching role, and the other person stays firmly in victim mode. No I need you to solve this for me. And it is difficult. What I would really encourage is that you have to stand firm. You have to maybe help explain why you're doing it the way you're doing it. But what often happens is because it feels uncomfortable for you to be in coach mode while they're over here in victim mode, sometimes we feel that kind of pressure to go into rescuer mode because the victim will just feel so much better if we flop into rescue mode and just tell them what to do. In the short term, they feel so much better, but in the long term, we know it doesn't help. So we have to stand firm. So we have to coach ourselves. To remind ourselves that just because they are in victim mode, we don't have to rescue them.
They are responsible for their own thoughts and feelings. If they choose to stay in victim mode, that is entirely up to them. All we can do is create environments in which we're happy with our behavior. We're comfortable that we've stayed in coach mode and hope that in time we can help them to see how beneficial that is. So stand firm.
Now one of the things that's challenging about all this stuff, as always, is this all sounds very nice, Vikki, but how do I do it in the moment? And this is something I touched on briefly last week. If you haven't listened to last week's episode with Alex Connor, where we talked about ADHD, maybe because you don't have ADHD and you didn't think it was relevant. Listen to it anyway, I promise. There's stuff for everyone in there.
One of the things that he talked about is how somebody with ADHD is likely to never be able to thought plan their way out of some inappropriate reactions. So if you have ADHD, you have problems with emotional regulation, you are probably at some point going to snap defensively when somebody offers you criticism, for example. And yes, we can work on developing that, but it's probably going to happen. So if you're experiencing that and you're thinking, well, there's no way I can stop that happening and therefore, if it happens, then I failed at this emotional regulation. What I'd really encourage you to think is you now have a choice about how you respond to that. So in that primary moment, you responded defensively, let's say, you attacked back because you felt hurt, just like a dog who's in pain might snap at you.
That bit, we might not be able to coach away, might be able to work on it, might be able to help us to develop the skills to take a breath and calm that moment, but we may not be able to coach that away, whether you've got ADHD or not. What we can coach is how you react to that.
So if we put I responded defensively in the circumstance line, that's just a fact, let's say, then we choose what we think about that. And often what we think about that, if we're unregulated, is I'm a terrible person, they're going to hate me, they're not going to want to work with me anymore, and then that makes us feel overwhelmed, or upset, or angry, or frustrated, or embarrassed, and all of those things, and then we start behaving in weird ways after that.
So even if you have reacted in the moment, even if there in the meeting, you put yourself in victim mode or you put yourself in rescuer mode without meaning to, once that's happened, it becomes a circumstance and you get to choose how you respond to it. Now, imagine the difference. If you went into a meeting and you were feeling very victim y, you were feeling very, like, everything was everybody else's fault, and you went in and you had that conversation and things, and you weren't able to regulate yourself in the moment, and then after the meeting, you sort of realized what was happening and how you could have done it differently, then imagine the difference between thinking, oh no, I went in as a victim, they're going to think I'm useless, they're not going to want to work with me anymore, and thinking, ah, yeah. I could have handled that better, didn't I? Okay, it's understandable. I get it. I was under a lot of pressure, but that could have gone better.
Just think the different emotions there and the different actions there. Because if we make ourselves frustrated and we make ourselves embarrassed, we're probably going to hide from that person. We're probably going to avoid speaking about it. We might double down in our defensiveness, put them back in villain mode. Well, it was their fault. You know, I only reacted like that because they were horrible to me. Whereas if we can choose our thoughts about that uncontrolled reaction and go, yeah, that wasn't ideal. We can feel comfortable to go back and have a conversation and say, look, I'm sorry, that wasn't okay. Um, this is why, I have problems with emotional regulation or I got really wound up, but it wasn't okay. And I apologize for that. How can we move forwards? You can address it more readily.
The other way you can manage all of these things is by going back to this idea of boss mode that we often talk about in the podcast. So boss mode is where we sort of almost lift ourselves out of our student selves or our current academic selves and make ourselves one level more senior than we are at the moment. And in that mode, we get to think how we support this person.
So, if you have a potentially difficult meeting coming up, or a presentation coming up where you think you might get challenged, and you might feel like a victim, or you might struggle to regulate your emotions, you get to sort of look ahead and be like, Ooh, I've got that thing. I'm worried about that thing. I'm worried how I'm going to react then. You can put yourself into boss mode, take a nice notebook and a hot drink and go and think, how do I want to show up? How would I show up if I was in creator mode? Where I'm vulnerable, willing to share that I'm finding things difficult. So... If you're going in and you're asking for support, victim might be, I just don't know what to do. I haven't, you know, I need you to help me. I'm just not coping, victim mode. Or creator mode. We go in and say, okay, this thing is specifically what I'm finding difficult. I know, you know, I feel awkward about the fact I'm finding it difficult, but I, I am and I want to share that with you.
Um, this is the specific bit. This is how I've tried to help myself. This is, you know, how I'm taking responsibility for it, but I've really appreciate some thoughts and guidance about how I can take this forward. It's such a different conversation because you're thinking, okay, how would I show up if I was willing to show my vulnerabilities and I was taking responsibility for my behavior and for my progression.
Similarly, if there's something you've got to have a difficult conversation because you've got to tell somebody you're not happy with how things are, how different would it be if you were treating them as a persecutor? You're like, this is your fault. It shouldn't be like this. It's terrible. Versus going in there as a challenger saying, look, I understand why things are like this. I get where it comes from, but this is the impact that it has on me that I'm seeing, and these are the ways that I think it could be changed in the future. So you go in in that much more constructive way.
Similarly, if you know you're having a meeting with somebody who's going to want your help, and you think they might position themselves as victim, what are you going to do in order to stay in coach mode? Yeah, we don't have to be good at this in the moment. We don't have to be able to just switch it on like a tap and be the perfect human being all the time. We don't.
We get to look ahead and go, Oh yeah, that might be challenging. How could I show up? What could that look like? Yeah, even if it's just, I know we're all pressed for time, even if it's just in your head in that five minutes while you're walking to the meeting. Or in that five minutes while you're grabbing a drink before you turn your Zoom call on, even if it's just in that time, how do I want to show up?
What would that look like? How do I take responsibility for myself in this meeting? We get to just coach that so we can think it in advance by putting ourselves in boss mode, then in the meeting or in the interaction, whatever that interaction might be, we do our best, deep breaths, always help everything, taking that moment to pause before we react.
But if we don't, if maybe it doesn't go as we want, then like we were saying with the ADHD stuff, you can put yourself in boss mode afterwards and go, okay, that went like that. I get it. I have compassion for the fact it went like that, but what can I do now to reconcile it for myself, to reconcile it for other people? So by putting yourself in boss mode, it can just help you to set these intentions, which makes it so much easier to then do in the moment.
If you expect yourself to just be able to react like this intuitively in the moment, then you're setting yourself up to find it really, really challenging. Let's choose intentionally, practice behaving like this, and then evaluate it afterwards and try again.
It may be that what you want to prepare for is those more informal interactions. So if what you're finding is that when you go into the department, you're inundated with people telling you how terrible things are, and so you're finding yourself not going into the department, i. e. changing your circumstance, perhaps what you want to do instead is to put yourself in boss mode, and think, how am I going to regulate my own emotions when I go into the department and encounter people that are complaining to me? How am I going to retain thoughts that help me? How am I going to maintain emotions that I know will help me get things done? Whilst also giving time and space to my colleagues to have whatever emotional experience they're having. And you can plan that stuff in advance too.
And then finally, when we're in boss mode, we can also think about how we take responsibility for hearing the things we need to hear. Because like I said at the beginning, we often want to hear from our supervisor that we're good at things, that we've done enough, and so on. I want you to spend a little bit of time thinking, how can I make myself feel heard? How can I make myself feel more confident? How can I make myself feel valued? Because we are going to hear our own voice more than any other voice we ever hear in the whole world. And so we get to choose which thoughts we focus on more, so that if we want to feel more confident, we can think thoughts that make us feel more confident.
And if we want to feel more secure, we can think thoughts that make us feel more secure. And if we want to feel happy, we can think thoughts that make us feel more happy. It's not a panacea. It's not going to fix every mental health problem that anybody has, but these things can really help. We don't have to make the negative thoughts go away. They can be there and we can choose to give more space to the thoughts that help us feel the way we want to feel in a particular context.
Remember. The way we want to feel in a particular context might not always be positive. When we look around the world, as it is at the moment, there is a whole lot of things that I feel angry about. And I'm sure you do too. There's a whole lot of things I feel upset about. There's a whole lot of things I feel scared about, to be honest. And I don't choose to make that go away. I know what thoughts are causing those. I know that I have a lot of thoughts about how politicians should run this world, how our leaders should behave, what decisions should be being made, and those thoughts are what make me angry and frustrated and scared, and I choose not to change those, because I think at the moment it's perfectly appropriate to feel angry, frustrated, and scared. So this isn't toxic positivity. This isn't make yourself feel happy, chappy all the time. This is knowing that even in those situations, you have responsibility for those thoughts. They just might feel completely appropriate for you right now.
What I choose to do instead is to focus on thoughts where it might lead to more purposeful action, where it might lead me to do something that might make a difference, or where in the short term, they can co exist, where I can say, I am really angry and upset and scared about what is happening in the world, but right now my focus is this task. Right now, I'm going to believe that it's important for me to record a podcast and speak to the people who are looking forward to this, because in my own little way, I'm supporting people out there in the world.
I choose to focus on that. So I allow the negative thoughts to be in my head. I allow them to be there because I think they're appropriate. I don't want to challenge those thoughts. I think they're perfectly fair. But at the same time, I give more space to the, I can make a difference to PhD students and academics who are having a really tough time and who are doing really, really important work by getting some of my work done.
And you can choose to do that too. There may be some negative thoughts that you don't want to think. They feel disproportionate. If you're thinking that everything's terrible and there's no point even bothering with my work. You might not want to keep that thought, because that's the sort of thought that, it doesn't lead to anything good, it doesn't lead to you making it better for anybody else, and it doesn't lead to you getting your stuff done either.
So that sort of thought, you might want to pick apart, you might want to challenge it. In what ways isn't it true, what else do I believe? Should the world be different? Yes. Can I still do my job? Yes, absolutely. I really hope this has been useful. It is a challenging time for an awful lot of people at the moment. Let's take responsibility for our own thoughts and feelings and have a lot of compassion for ourselves that we are in really tough circumstances right now, and that's okay. We can still support ourselves. We can still be kind to ourselves. We can still tell ourselves the things we need to hear and support ourselves through whatever we need to do over the next few weeks.
Be kind to yourself. Doing all of this does take energy. You're not going to immediately find yourself able to regulate all of your emotions, and that's probably not even desirable. Be kind to yourself and reclaim some of this power over your own thoughts and emotions. Thank you so much. I hope you found this useful, and I will see you next week.